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  He stood. "I had good reason," he said, and lifted his shirt from the back of the chair.

  Since she couldn't decide if he meant he had been fleeing danger or had needed to see her, she didn't reply. "You can have the first bath," she said. "I'll get the water going."

  "No, please, you go first. I think I will rest, if there is nothing you would have me do."

  With alarm Lila saw that his face was pale once again, and she felt guilty for marching him all over the countryside with his injuries. "Oh, no. Please feel free. I have some books under the eaves up there. Mostly history, though, I'm afraid."

  "I think I will sleep. Thank you."

  She watched him climb the stairs, a little concerned about his exhaustion. When he had disappeared, she sighed and stoked the embers in the stove into a snapping hot fire, feeding it twigs and small pieces of wood until it could sustain heavy blocks of pine.

  That done, she carried in buckets of water that she put on the stove to heat, then dragged the galvanized tub from beneath the stairs and filled it a quarter-full with cold water.

  By the time the water on the stove was boiling, she found she was tired herself. Dropping a packet of powdered scent into the water, she kicked off her shoes, peeled the socks from her feet and shucked her flannel shirt and jeans.

  It was then that she thought of Samuel. Standing in the warmed room, clad only in a thin T-shirt and her panties, she felt utterly vulnerable. No one had ever been with her in this tiny place, and it was isolated enough that she'd enjoyed her solitude and the pleasure of bathing in front of the stove. She hesitated a moment, feeling an odd sense of decadence at being completely bare while a man slept upstairs.

  Sleeping is the key word, Waters. With a snort at her fanciful turn of thoughts, she discarded the rest of her clothes. There was nothing decadent about bathing, and Samuel, whatever else he might be, was not a wolf who'd peek down the stairs at her.

  As she climbed into the lavender-scented water, though, she thought of his teasing words on the beach—that perhaps they ought to bathe together. It made her feel jointless to think of him in here with her, to think of his sleek chest against hers, the water lubricating their skin until it was slippery.

  She sunk lower into the water, propping her feet on the end of the tub. Her toes framed the window, through which poured a pale gray light, and the fire snapped cheerfully, smelling richly of spicy needles. It was, she thought, a very romantic place and moment. Even the rain seemed cooperative for once, lending a musical backdrop to the scene. Lazily she closed her eyes, thinking of Samuel. Would his touch be gentle or fierce? How would his body feel next to hers?

  Ah, Samuel, what will it take to tempt you? she thought.

  A thump from above, perhaps a dropped shoe, shattered her sensual daze. She sat upright, splashing water.

  The man was wounded, exhausted—and determined to avoid entanglements. Seduction had never been her style, and it was embarrassing to realize that was just what she'd been contemplating.

  With sharp, brisk strokes she began to scrub her body with a rough sponge, attempting, she knew, to wash her fantasies away with the grime.

  Samuel was not sleeping. He lay in the bed beneath the window, listening to Lila hum to herself. Beneath her voice he heard the light splashes of water as she bathed. He thought of her lovely body, bared and wet, and wondered how it would smell and taste and feel, wondered with such intensity that he thought he would go mad. Would freckles dot her shoulders and breasts? Was her waist as willowy as it appeared?

  When he had kissed her at her house in Seattle, he had been completely swept away by the passion he had discovered, for he had not anticipated her earthiness or the boldness of her pale, sweetly innocent eyes, eyes that had taken on a languorous heat as she had caught his face and kissed him again. Then she had been shy at the airport, when he'd wanted to taste that passion again.

  The contrasts of her intrigued and annoyed him. Was she passionate or shy?

  He shifted, trying to darken the flickering imaginings in his brain. Her cabin, he thought, was at odds with her small house in Seattle. The only thing they had in common was a wood stove. The house in Seattle had been filled with lush fabrics and bright, jingling things. It had been the home of a gypsy, the perfect backdrop for the woman who wore long, full skirts and too much jewelry and rode a motorcycle to work.

  In contrast, the cabin was utterly simple and serene. The patchwork quilts were hand pieced and old, and he'd seen jars of homemade jam on the shelves of the pantry. She had baked simple muffins for their breakfast, and he'd glimpsed a knitting bag to one side of the room. Her clothing here reflected a simple, homey woman—more in keeping with the daughter of Oklahoma ranchers than a bohemian student.

  Which was the real Lila? How could both be contained within the same small woman? Thinking about it made his head hurt. He was too tired to be chasing around in circles, he thought with a congratulatory mental sensibility. It didn't matter which Lila was which, anyway. He could not have her, whatever guise she adopted.

  It was that simple and that tragic.

  He did not awaken until long after dark. His mouth was dry, his shoulder stiffly painful, his thoughts as grim as a gravestone. For long moments he lay in the dark, listening to the interminable rain fall against the window. His thoughts, like his dreams, were of his brother.

  Mustapha. Three years older, a half a head taller. A physical, spoiled and passionate boy who'd taken a wrong turn.

  Both of them had faced pressures as the children of a mixed marriage in a land where emotions ran high about such things. But even as a young boy, Samuel had loved the romance of his parents' match as it was told to him by his mother and then his grandfather, who approved any happy marriage, any happiness found anywhere.

  Mustapha had not accepted it as readily. He had vacillated between the religions of his parents, resenting his lack of belonging with any group of children in school. In England, at school he'd fallen in with progressively troublesome students until he'd been expelled. Instead of providing a springboard to a sensible look at his attitudes, Mustapha had taken the expulsion to heart as further evidence of his outcast status.

  Over the years Samuel had tried to talk to his brother, tried to lure him to the States, where everyone had a multitude of histories and cultures. Not that they handled it perfectly, either, but he thought it might help his brother to see the way Americans cited their long lists of conflicting ancestors, histories tangled by love.

  But Mustapha had been unwilling. He drifted, at times accomplishing some little thing in his life or for the world he lived in, more often falling in with unstable rebels.

  And now he was linked with the Freedom League, an extreme and hysterical group. Samuel couldn't understand how Mustapha had allowed himself to become involved.

  Swinging his feet out from below the quilts, he lit a cigarette. But hadn't he, like his brother, carried an ideal to an extreme?

  At first The Organization had seemed a moral and levelheaded way to address what Samuel felt were very serious concerns. Like his childhood hero, Einstein, he believed finding peace was not a passive concern; one had to actively work toward it.

  The leaders and founders of The Organization were drawn from the top echelons of every powerful government in the world. There were statesmen and economists, scientists and generals. They were, by any reckoning, some of the most erudite and knowledgeable men on the face of the earth. Who was he to question them?

  But in five years he'd learned more than he wished to know about the underbelly of mankind. No matter how one tried, it seemed nothing ever healed in the roiling arena of world affairs.

  A year ago he'd begun to feel weary, and had thought it was time to move on. Now he was very neatly trapped. Without The Organization he had no chance of survival. Someone had hired Jamal Hassid to kill him. Until he knew exactly who and why, he had not a prayer of living once he left this enclave.

  Crushing his cigarette out, he stood w
earily. Perhaps food and rest would clear his head.

  He slipped on a clean shirt from his suitcase. The sound of the rain, pattering down in earnest, drowned any sounds from below. It also muffled his footsteps as he headed downstairs.

  Halfway down, he stopped, entranced. For there, in the uncluttered space between her bed and the table against the opposite wall, Lila danced. Her shadow was flung in sharp relief against the far wall, a flickering, sweeping image that leapt in time to the light and airy tune she was humming.

  Bathed in the soft glow cast by a kerosene lantern, she twirled and dipped, her back exquisitely straight, her arms gracefully swaying as her stockinged feet nimbly tipped and flitted. In the swirl of her wrists and the precise, graceful shift of her fingers, Samuel saw the long years of practice that had brought her to the brink of the stage. In the subtle awkwardness of some movements, he saw the shape of a lost dream.

  Her face had been in shadow, but she turned now, dipping one shoulder toward him, and the expression on her features seized him.

  Joy.

  Her eyes were closed, her cheeks flushed, her lips winsomely smiling. From the corners of her eyes, tears flowed in a gentle stream, washing down her cheeks unchecked.

  He watched her in rapt silence as she slowed, circled and bowed to an imaginary audience, never dreaming she had attracted a real one.

  "Bravo," he said quietly.

  She whirled, hurriedly dashing the tears from her cheeks. "Samuel," she said. "I didn't hear you." Her voice was breathy with exertion.

  "I know," he said, climbing down the rest of the stairs.

  Lila buried her face in her hands, laughing. "I'm so embarrassed! You've been sleeping a long time—and I always dance when I'm here—"

  He took her hand from her face and lifted her chin. "I've seen a great many ballets in my life, but not one has ever given me the pleasure of that one." Helplessly he traced the edge of her jaw with his thumb. Her pale green eyes held an expression of fear mixed with longing and lingering joy. One of her hands circled his wrist.

  When her lips parted gently, he was lost to the multitude of hungers he felt in her company. As he bent to kiss those voluptuous lips, meeting their softness, he wanted to taste joy and life again, wanted to somehow absorb her sweetness, reclaim an innocence lost to him so long ago he could barely remember owning it.

  And it was joy he tasted in the press of her mouth, in the tender moistness of her tongue. Her hand moved on his arm, and her body swayed into his, sending scarlet ribbons of hunger unfurling through his thighs and belly and manhood. Her breasts pushed against his chest, and he found his hand in the tumbling mass of her hair.

  As his tongue slid slowly into the sweet cavern of her mouth, he tugged her hard against him, fitting them together in an almost urgent need to meld together. He circled her waist hard and held her head at a slant to more closely align their mouths. She met him eagerly, her arms slipping around his neck as her back arched. He thought she might even be standing on tiptoe.

  He was lost in the dewy texture of her flesh, in the springy curls of her hair, in the wood-smoke scent and succulent taste of her. He was enchanted by the spell of Lila.

  So intent was he upon tasting the nectar of her innocence that it took the sour voice of his conscience long moments to be heard. It was wrong to try to restore his joy at the cost of her heart, for in the end he would have to leave her. With a reluctance greater than any he had ever known, he eased their kiss into a slower cadence, gently so as not to wound her. He drew away, still holding her. "I am not a free man, Lila."

  She gazed at him solemnly and lifted a hand to his face. "I know."

  Lila didn't trust herself to remain so close to him, and with a breathy sigh, moved away. "I made a stew, if you're hungry, and some bread. I also filled the tub with fresh water and have it heating here by the stove." She knew she was babbling, but couldn't seem to stop herself. Every nerve in her body was humming with both dancing and Samuel. "I can easily make a pot of coffee, too, if you like."

  He grabbed her hand and pressed a single finger to her lips. His eyes, molten only seconds before, were alight with laughter. "Shh," he whispered. "Thank you and thank you and thank you."

  She inhaled slowly and let the breath seep out through her lips. "Okay," she said. "Let me know."

  "Have you eaten?"

  "Yes."

  "All right. Then you should sit and let me get my own. Bowls here?" He pointed toward the curtained cupboard. At Lila's affirmative noise, he found the wooden bowls and filled one with the hot stew. "It smells wonderful."

  "The bread is in that pan on the back." To give her hands something to do besides fly up in the air, punctuating her nervousness, she pulled a basket of yarn closer and took out the knitting needles. A multihued afghan tumbled over her legs. Furiously she began to click the needles.

  Samuel settled across from her, giving hearty appetite to the stew. Men, she thought in exasperation. Had the situation been reversed, she could never have eaten anything. But Samuel ate with the vigor of a long-starved refugee, washing down the bread and stew with long swallows of cold water from a bucket in the corner. Outside, the rain pounded annoyingly.

  Click, click, click. She focused her attention on the knitting, feeding blue yarn through her fingers.

  "Lila." His voice startled her, and she dropped a stitch.

  "Damn." Carefully she picked it up. "What?"

  "Is there a contest?"

  She looked at him. "What are you talking about?"

  He lifted his chin, indicating her knitting needles. "I thought there might be a contest for speed."

  For another second she stared at him blankly. Then his meaning penetrated, and she laughed. "I'm just not quite sure how to behave. No one has ever been here with me before." She gave him a rueful shrug. "I'm … I'm flustered."

  "And you should be." In a dry voice he added, "Women have fainted in my arms when I kissed them."

  "Why, Samuel," she drawled, "I believe you actually made a joke."

  "Oh, no." His eyes glittered. "A Frenchman's curse, you know—fainting women." He blotted his lips neatly. "Now, didn't I see a bottle or two of wine here?"

  "Yes, but I'm afraid you'll have to drink it out of a tumbler."

  He sighed dramatically. "How far we've fallen." He put his bowl on the small counter with Lila's. "Here?" He pointed again to the curtained cupboard.

  "No," she said wryly, "you'll have to run down to the wine cellar."

  He spared a glance over his shoulder before bending down to examine the lower shelf. "Ah." He pulled out the wine and glasses, found a corkscrew in a bin of utensils and settled back at the table. "I trust you'll join me?" he said, placing the glass before her.

  "Sure." She found herself knitting more easily now, falling into a soothing rhythm.

  Samuel examined the label on the bottle and frowned. "I've never heard of this."

  "Local vintage. That's all they carry. I think Mr. Johnson's brother-in-law runs the winery."

  "Really." He poured them each a measure and held his glass up to the light. "Good color," he commented, and sipped. "Hmm. It isn't bad, really."

  "I've always enjoyed it."

  "I didn't know they made wine in Oregon."

  Lila lifted her glass. The wine tasted the way it always did, a flavor that made her think of the pleasant summer days she spent here in the cabin. Resuming her knitting, she said, "I read a book once about dandelion wine, about a boy and summer and the dandelions they collected each day for the wine. And when they tasted it later, it was always like they had trapped the day in the wine." She smiled. "That's how this wine always tastes to me, like a particular summer day was bottled."

  "Yes." His face reflected deep pleasure. "Every day my grandfather bought a bottle of local wine for the same reason." He lifted an eyebrow. "You see how you would have liked one another?"

  "He had a sense of wonder, your grandfather."

  "He did. So must the writer of your
book."

  "Ray Bradbury—he's written a lot of books. Some of them are really wonderful."

  "I'll have to remember."

  The mood in the room seemed to mellow. Samuel shifted to lean his back against the wall, his legs out in front of him, facing the cheerful fire in the stove. "Did you make these quilts here?" he asked.

  "No, Granny made them. I don't have much luck with finishing a quilt." She laughed to herself. "Neither does my mother. She always has a dozen stitchery projects going, all in various stages of completion. And since I've been working on this afghan for almost four years, I'd say it was hereditary." She paused to sip again at her wine. "Does your mother make quilts and pillows and things?"

  "Oh, no. My mother talks."

  "Talks?"

  "Talks." He smiled fondly. "And talks and talks."

  "What does she talk about?"

  "The weather, the food, the town, my father, my brother." He lifted a shoulder. "She talks."

  "But you don't mind."

  "No. I like her. She's very kind and warm, my mother. She's the one who remembers every little thing for the neighbors—everyone's birthdays, and the grandchildren's names."

  "That's how my mother is, too. She always cooks like the dickens when somebody dies." Lila put aside her knitting and leaned forward, holding her wine between her hands. "But, you know, when my brother died, every woman in town had something for my mother. She didn't have to cook for a month. And even afterward, when I was in my cast, they would come over to help her with her chores or sit with me."

  "Don't you miss your big family?"

  "Nope." She sighed. "They drive me crazy—everybody has to mind everybody else's business. You can't clip your toenails without somebody giving you advice on which brand of clippers is better."

  Samuel laughed. Not a chuckle, a full, open-mouthed laugh. It showed his strong white teeth and the fine arrangement of lines on his face. "Try it with a whole village of people."

  "I can imagine. No, thanks." The laugh had sent a ripple down her spine, and now she found herself admiring the fall of his ebony hair and his severe but handsome face. Her eyes lit on the long, slim fingers resting lazily on the table, and she wanted to touch them, feel them again in her hair. Straightening, she asked, "Is that why you've chosen to live here instead of there?"